I beg the question at hand when a person cannot seem to open their eyes or mind. It is desperately frustrating to deal with someone who is unable to see that they are causing themselves the pain that torments them. I have tried to be helpful and a good friend, but I am no saint; patience and mercy have never been my primary strengths. I have seen the edge before. I was certain I would jump at one point until the day my mind snapped, leaving me to rebuild from what was left. I gave months of my patience and mercy. I have no more to give.
Life has so much to offer to those who identify their goals, and learn to survive; enduring through hardship while never fearing pain. I want so much out of this life, yet the fundamental structure of society makes sacrifice a main pillar in the foundation of success. I will survive in this life. I have no other option.
I need an outlet to deal with stress. I am not sure how much longer I continue on this current path, and it is not for a lack of care or effort. Difficult decisions define and sculpt the future of a person. I must clear my mind in order to make proper decisions. My will is crumbling, I feel like an eroded piece of land; never moving while everything else shapes me without my consent.